pls excuse my typing, i like to save kystrkes, and i dont hv the time to deal with spellchk. i apologize for the inconvnience. beleeve me, i do believe in the integrity of wrds and their meaning, but i dont beeleave in mesuring a persons life, education, or morality on spelling correktly. It's the individuals message that's really imprtnt.

Blog 111 8:34PM 10/28/2010

My Facebook bio which I filled out a number of years ago, long before FB became popular, says "Please put me on the first spaceship to Mars"...and this week I read that NASA is "planning" a one way trip to Mars. Please sign me up. Just give me plenty of Milky way bars, and MRE's. Hmmm what else would I like. Internet. A nice comfy bed. I mean very comfortable. A nice recliner. Supplies and plans on building an atrium. Plenty of seeds, preferably, watermelon, celery, tomatoes, teach me how to grow beans, potatoes....a machine to extract water from the ice. Robot companion. Video software to communicate back to earth. My own website that allows me to communicate with everyone on earth. I'm sure there's lots more. Building materials, ways to create building materials. This would be very exciting. Incredible achievement to get there. And live. I'll be glad to commit 20 yrs there. Sign me up. The only reason I say 20 yrs, is because I should hope that in 20 yrs you invent new tech that will be able to shuttle us back and forth at will. But of course if you don't, I'll be happy to be the first guy to be buried on Mars. In fact I'd be honored.

Blog 110 11:49PM 10/5/2010

after reading at length about richard feynman, carl sagan, tesla, socrates, neitchze, physics, science, and philosphy, I consider this quote to be the exact definition of how i feel regarding religion. i wrote something similar as a comment on a stephen colbert video about religion.

"My position concerning God is that of an agnostic. I am convinced that a vivid consciousness of the primary importance of moral principles for the betterment and ennoblement of life does not need the idea of a law-giver, especially a law-giver who works on the basis of reward and punishment." - Albert Einstein

if we're going to survive we need an ethical culture. i think that is something simple to understand. and the starting point is?...can we all agree on one thing? one point of reference? the decision of what that central idea is, is the foundation of our society and is the first step on our journey into the future. so what statement can mankind agree on as a whole? does such a statement exist? we have progressed thru the age of reason and past the Enlightenment to where we are today. we know that logical reason is what should govern our world and determine our value system. and we already have our foundation, "On December 10, 1948 the General Assembly of the United Nations adopted and proclaimed the Universal Declaration of Human Rights" but far too many of us choose not to follow it. without unanimous consent, we can only have strife. and that is what exists today.

Blog 109 8:14AM 8/21/2010

lets be philosophical. the voyage of my entity in it's current vessel is surely important.but instead of getting caught up in the "world that it's in" and drawn into the chaos, it is far more gratifying to, enjoy the trip, so to say.

it's sometimes difficult to avoid getting lassoed in by the information you are fed by the world around you. somehow i think most people feel they have to live up to the expectations of tv producers. whatever people on tv tell you is important, is what the public for the most part follows along with.

why is blagoyevich being called delusional. who's to say he is delusional? whatever reality he perceives is what it is. just because it doesnt conform to your "rules" or moreso your "views of life" then,,,,"we must discard his views as delusional!" who came up with this rule? people come up with rules that just dont jive. if he is delusional then i say the guy i say last night on tv with his entire body covered with tatoos and body piercings is delusional also. i would even say Charles Rangel is delusional. at least acccording to my personal rules/views of how society should operate. again this gets us back to, why are tv producers right? they seem to be setting all the rules for society to follow.

oh by the way i came across a great story in the book "surely you're joking mr feynman". feynman was a great physicist from the 40's and helped create the atomic bomb. he is pure genius, and very pragmatic. he mentions in his book the time when he went through the process of getting a physical

i cant quatify why your opinion of a person is law. its strictly your opinion. your views are only opinion.

i dont know anyone much like myself as of yet but i just found a person that i am very similar to. richard feynman. so many of his lifes experiences coincide with mine in strange and unusual ways. he wound up going to plattsburgh air force base, same place i went to for field training. he was constantly curious, constantly thinking of everything around him. and i mean everything, how a plate gets its shape, what makes a fan spin, why do my eyes see my furniture but not the radio waves that are all around me. theyr filtered out. you need to make a device that can pick them up and convert them for you to see(TV) or hear them. but theyr right in front of your eyes, all jumbled up constantly zipping all around us. we're actually lucky to have this filter in our eyes that removes them from our vision or it would impede our vision of the current world and the normal things we see everyday. we'd constantly be in a cloud of information. its funny that this cloud was really only created in the past century, and that it wouldv grown bigger over time thus making the air around us cloudier and cloudier. i wonder how cloudy it is in the air around us compared to a century ago. if you look at all of the radio waves that are crossing in front of your face right now i wonder how crowded it is compared to a hundred years ago. how cloudy indeed is the space around us with waves of information, sounds pictures and video. it grows everyday more and more. truly amazing when you think about it. you cant see it so you dont think about it.

theres no reason i have to think and focus on being emotional. its your own choice to think and feel what you choose to. i want to look at reality from a new angle that i have now discoverd thru my interest in science. basically all the is, is. for whatever reason we'll most likely never find out. i truly dont think our brains have the capacity to understand fully the mysteries of the universe. but we have lots of simple insights into the "Everything that surrounds us". the 4 forces of nature, the law of gravity, and many other simple explanations(although very complex indeed) can explain what makes up our reality and give you a sense of peace. my ending is going to be whatever its going to be.if i wer able to see it would i try to change it? i say no. but the average person would most likely say yes. what if we knew that when we died we all went to a garden of eden, and we even knew the history of what that existence is like and how that ends and what comes after that. would we celebrate death? or would we still mourn? we mourn as if we know we're going to hell. although the real feeling behind mourning someone is because of the "loss". we enjoyed that persons presence and it brought joy to our lives. but if i knew you were going the garden, i would bid you farewell with a smile. you would most likely be happy as the time came near knowing the fact of where you;r about to go. there would be no fear of death. and on the other end of that, would people be dying to get out of here? killing themselves to get to paradise. maybe we're lucky that we dont know. otherwise it might cause a great calamity in society.

getting back to my similarities with mr feynman. that paragraph above was one of those similarities. you just think and think. of anything and everything. and by the process of thinking things through you come up to logical conclusions about the world around you. its fun to think, and figure things out. i understand that people are human and will behave according to the tv producer but i feel theres options out there. and theres very amazing things in the world that are far more important than ice road truckers and the kardashians.

lets put it this way. do you know who aristotles cousin was? do you personally know the names of lincolns parents? or maybe the brothers and sisters of george washington? well thats about as popular you and me are going to be when we move on. so dont be obsessed with trying to be imprtant in the world to the point of giving yourself an ulcer. i feel its simpler to follow simple rules while your travelling in this vessel on this particular planet. one, enjoy the ride. like i said before, you can make your own choices and do whatever makes you happy, just as long as you dont harm another human being. two,respect oneself. three, respect ones friends, family and neighbors. three, respect the earth.

bring it down to a few basic principals.

that would get us on a very level playing field and help us focus on those ideals, instead of the chaos of trying to be the coolest dude, or the richest gal, or the whackiest looking person in the world. doing harm to your body, the earth, or others, is prohibited by the rules i laid out above. so many things we do today would have to be abolished.

thats a whole diff conversation. i still didnt get back to feynman. our similarities, he tried to volunteer for the army and he was rejected. it's a hillarious story. i tried to volunteer at a hospital just to do volunteer work. i got rejected! theres many other similarities that i cant recall right now...ohyes...another. being very short and to the point when making a decision. if somethign is not logical or has too many options, discard it. focus on efficiency. the human side of me would say, "excuse me sir. hi how are you today? can you tell me what aisle the apple sauce is in?" what i normally do is approach the grocery store employee and say "applesauce?" that cut out 17 words of the conversation. i do understand that part of being human is interacting and being nice and partaking in all the small talk. but i end up with the same information, and i reply with a "thank you sir or mam" everytime. i still show my respect which is one of the rules set out above again.

anyway that was a long conversation about nothing. once again a blah blah blah of things that will be displayed for the world to see, and then vanish into thin air. i will passs on just like everyone else. and a thousand years from now nobody will know my name or that i ever existed. or even a hudred thousand years from now. or a million? i say noone will be remembered a million years from now. and surely not you or me. michio kaku or einstien maybe but us, i say impossible. so just enjoy the ride.....

Blog 108 2:14AM 8/19/2010

man has been fighting for a long time. thousands of years. and im not referring to fighting over a woman, or land, or religion, or even war. man has been punching other men in the face for sport for over a thousand years. its absolutely ridiculous.

our brains are so diverse its impossible to imagine what we will think of next. iv said this before. as far as we can think in a positive direction, we also stretch the same boundaries in the opposite direction. almost the same as an expanding universe. they say there are more possible nerve impulse connections in the brain than there are stars in the universe. that means the brain is pretty heavy machinery. and theres a lot left to think about in every direction. it would be preferable to focus our thoughts in unison in one direction, similar to ants or bees for the common good of the colony. but our colony is a sick ride across the universe of thought, converted to life experience.

there is no freedom. absolute freedom would mean no government. once you have a govt there is no freedom. you are now being governed.

your brain is the sun of your own personal solar system, dont let it go out.

sometimes i feel sure that im surrounded by aliens or theres a possibility that i may be the alien.

humans are extremely destructive creatures. no other animal on earth treats the earth with such disrespect.

iv come to the conclusion that iv never had the opportunity to be myself. everything that encompasses who i am has been force fed to me since i was born. i can honestly say that it took me 44 yrs to finally realize that i can think for myself. i was forced to watch tv my entire life, to root for the mets, the knicks the giants and the jets. to worship a being in the sky. to like ivory soap. to wear blue jeans. to like pizza. basically everything you know, and do, has been forcefed into your brain by another human being in one way or another. you havnt made many choices in life that werent thrown directly in your face by your environment. yet at the same time, if you made one different choice at any point in your life, you might have wound up in a different state or even country. living in an entirely different life than you are today.

a long time ago, a few years after college, i had an idea one day while playing rummy with a girlfriend. i was sure that when i went to pick up a card from the deck, that if i left my hand on the card, it would constantly be changing until the moment that i decided to pick up the card. and now i know that this is apparently true according to modern theoretical physics. it was very satisfying to know that i discovered this theory on my own over 20 years ago. putting the pieces of reality together is loads of fun.

i understand the importance of language, but i see no importance in the skill of spelling. ideas are free formed, whereas spelling is purely memorization. memorization of rules created by another human being.

man is just a boy that plays with bigger and more complicated toys. the need to play seems embedded in the human psyche.

i am so preoccupied with working for a living, that i am not helping humanity to the extent that my mind dreams of. If my dreams of a more structured world would ever come true, the potential successes for humanity would be limitless. and if they are still limitless, then the process of moving forward in a positive direction is about as slow as the drifting of the continents. will we survive another millenium? and where will we be as a race? divided still? divided more?

rome survived 600 yrs? the US is on 200. i can only wonder what the future holds,

we are so lucky to live in a world where we can turn on running water with the flip of finger. and our disregard for such a luxury is criminal.

where do you come up with this stuff?

who was the guy that came up with the rule that im not allowed to talk to myself out loud? whats the difference if i speak out loud or silently? im still speaking to myself am i not?

Blog 107 1:48AM 8/19/2010

what have you been drinking that made you write this crazy shat last month, whatever it is...slow down buddy

Blog 106 10:48PM 6/29/2010

I came across a video of a man named Richard Feynman. An incredible physicist. He was part of the temam that devloped the atom bomb and became a very prominent figure in devloping modern theories on the universe. Pure genius. A man that changed my life by just listneing to him speak. About things. Just things. He acknowledges that he cant think about much of anything without seeing it as an equation. He see's everything as it really is, which is far from what "we" see things as. Where we see a cup of coffee, he's sees atoms. He has a very literal view of what life is. Everything is just jiggling atoms. And i'v noticed that when you reduce everything in your world to atoms, then the people, places and things that make up your life, kind of lose their worth.. That the worth I've assignd to people, places and things is just a made up world of my human emotion, and the ideals that have been bred into me. "Value" is a concept we've created in order to put our world in some kind of order. If i remove that feeling, then i see things as just what they are, atoms. No person has any more importance than any another person in the world of true reality. But of course in our world of human emotion, every word you say has value. Everything you do has value. A day has value, a tree has value, a child's smile has value, yet in the reality of the universe it all means nothing. It's kind of amusing. So in reality you can think of yourself as whatever you want. Thinking about what everyone else thinks has zero relevance to what "you" think. You are only what you think you are. I dont want to repeat the quote "You are exactly who you think you are." That refers to a "who", which infers a "personality". I feel moreso that thinking of "what you are" gives you power over "who you are". Today you can be one person and tomrow you can be another. There are no limits to what you can think, so there should be no limits to what and who you can be. Life is limitless.

Blog 105 10:29PM 5/10/2010

An oil rig called Deepwater Horizon exploded and fell to the bottom of the Gulf of Mexico. It was first estimated to be releasing 42,000 gallons per day, by the next morning it was at 210,000 per day. by my own calculations, I would guess its a 12 inch pipe releasing at least 5 gallons per second which equals 432,000 per day. But to be honest if it's gushing like a gusher in a hollywood movie it's releasing about 10 times that, which is over 4 million gallons a day. this might well ruin the entire gulf of mexico. thats including the coasts of mexico, texas, louisana, mississippi, alabama, florida, cuba and even more. this may well be doomsday, or this will just disintegrate on its own in the gulf and prove that the world can handle our messes. so stay tuned.

The recording of history must never stop. This writing is it's own record of one human life. One historical viewpoint that might last far longer than its creator.

Buckminster Fuller was a great guy.

I've noticed that it's highly probable that 1% of 1% of the entire population is what keeps the other 99.9999% living every day. That small percentage of people, have invented and built almost everything that we use today. Without that small percentage of inventors and scientists we would have nothing but horse drawn carriages. Could you invent a telecommunications system? Could you recreate morse code? Can you make wire? Would you know where to get copper from?

Blog 104 8:56PM 11/19/2009

Jessica's B'nai Mitzvah was last weekend. An incredible day. Never to be forgotten. Jessica is mentally disabled but was able to finally get bat mitvah'd with the help of our friends Ellen Kleinert and Jerry Cohn. Jerry is a Cantor and he made this incredible day happen for Jessica and his stepdaughter Barrie. Picture

Original copy of entire speech and toast at Barrie and Jessica's B'nai Mitzvah 11/15/2009

Speech
This is going to get tough I'm sure, just keep the cameras rolling and we can edit it later.

Thank you, Cantor Jerry Cohn, for giving us this wonderful day, without cantor Jerry this day never would've happened. Today you get special matzoh ball soup.

Thank you also to Ellen and the entire Kleinert-Cohn family ….

Jessica Jessica Jessica. Thank you and you too Barrie, for giving all of US this special day. This is surely a day nobody here will ever forget. Jessica before I met you and your mom, Bonnie….I lived in quite a different world. Today I have an incredibly loving wife and a 26 year old daughter, and just like that I'm Tevya! For those gentiles out there, Tevya is the Pappa from Fiddler on the Roof. So I now realize what it means to be the poppa! And now it's my responsibility to put into words what this special day means to Jessica and to all of us……

Jess you're the best
You're different than the rest
You've taught us things we all should know
Like how to smile and say hello
You can brighten up a dull day
With everything you have to say
The I love you's all day long
As we all know, that's the Jessica song
We all know that Justin is your guy
And that he puts a twinkle in your eye
But G-d is here today
To set you on your way
To new places and new faces
To new successes and beautiful dresses
To give you the strength every dayTo be Jessica Lynn, the incredible girl within……
Jessica you've proved to everyone in this room that you can do anything you put your mind to
You're an inspiration to us all
Please don't ever stop being the special person that we all love and cherish
So from the poppa and the momma, and all of your family and friends
We love you Jessica

Toast
A toast to two young ladies that have crossed the bridge of the mitzvah. They join us now in this room as adults. They have responsibilities, they have their own companies, they're off and running into the new world.

These two young women are our daughters, everyone of us.

These are the children that we have guided through life to finally come to this day.

Let us all rejoice in hugs, laughter and everlasting love for a very special day that we will remember forever. Thank you O Lord our God, King of the Universe. AhhhhMen. Mazel Tov!

Blog 103 9:02PM 11/04/2009

This just occurred to me while watching the History channel do a story about that song we've all heard..Blues in the night(my momma done told me)....how many millions of songs did we lose over the last 10,000 years because they were never recorded on a record/cd. We only have around 100 years of music out of 10,000 years of humanity. Imagine what we'll never be able to hear. Shakespeare doing Hamlet. Bands playing Mozart hundreds of years ago. People singing songs while working in the fields a thousand years ago. So much is lost.

Blog 102 7:39PM 9/29/2009

I'm alive. Whew what a trip that was. Wish i cud tell you about it but it felt more like a century, than 2 and a half years since we last spoke. so much has happend. the world changed a lot in just those 2 yrs. and believe it or not, it has gotten worse since our last conversation. in short a guy named bernie madoff, yes that's correct madoff, made off with billions of dollars from people all around the world. he ruined lives and destroyed futures. it was a terrible event and he's currently in jail. the other big news since we last spoke is, the housing market in america just about broke the entire planets economy structure and collapsed stock markets all around the world. im gonna tell you something you never wouldv imagined in april of 2007, the stock market fell to under 7,000 points. yeah it was insane. the entire planets economy collapsed and there are now 10 million people in the US that are unemployed. oh yeah and last year for a short period in time the price of gas hit over $4.00 a gallon. it was insane. And dang, forgot to tell mention the entire auto industry went bust in the US and hundreds of dealerships have closed across the country. And holy cow you wont believe this either, we finally have our first African American President, that guy Barack Obama that spoke at the Democratic convention in 2004 won. Yeah he beat Hillary in a sick race for the Democratic nomination, i was there volunteering at the concession stand for the arts center when he came to town. Then he ran against John McCain for the presidency and won. It was a night to remember, it was the biggest party ever...of all time. crazy crazy. well i think that about says it for everything else in the world. me? i'm still hard at work on our management application, using a team from india. great coders to work with. every instruction or layout i give them, they just "get it" and take my idea to the next level every time. super sharp programming, ruby, ajax, java and more. business has slowed due to the economic collapse but its picking up slowly already. actually i forgot, wendy says the phones are ringing off the hook. sales are jamming right now. we're the least expensive vendor in the industry, so nobody can beat us. we have no overhead and we've made the application so simple that we avoid those "how to"calls which weigh a company down. we're psyched. holy shat! i forgot to tell you. bonnie, jessica and i marched in the 2008 Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade with the Florida Special Arts Center. It was probably the happiest day in my life. and yet i my happiness was for jessica and her friends as i watched their excitement seeing all the celebrities and floats up close. i cried as if all 30 of the kids were my own. bonnie and i donated a lot of our time and money to the center to help them get there. we met with Macy's executives on the 16th floor and they gave out macy's duffle bags and tshirts to everyone. the excitement of the rehearsal the night before thanksgiving was mind blowing. that week will go down as one of the most exciting weeks in my life. i captured video of our entire journey. wow i never cudv predicted that one in april of 2007. i want to sign off with.....today was the day miss linda met miss daisey. it was an incredible day. stay tuned.